Gorilla and the Bird: A Memoir of Madness and a Mother's Love (Hardcover)

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"Glorious...one of the best memoirs I've read in years...a tragicomic gem about family, class, race, justice, and the spectacular weirdness of Wichita. [McDermott] can move from barely controlled hilarity to the brink of rage to aching tenderness in a single breath." -- Marya Hornbacher, New York Times Book Review

Zack McDermott, a 26-year-old Brooklyn public defender, woke up one morning convinced he was being filmed, Truman Show-style, as part of an audition for a TV pilot. Every passerby was an actor; every car would magically stop for him; everything he saw was a cue from "The Producer" to help inspire the performance of a lifetime. After a manic spree around Manhattan, Zack, who is bipolar, was arrested on a subway platform and admitted to Bellevue Hospital.

So begins the story of Zack's freefall into psychosis and his desperate, poignant, often hilarious struggle to claw his way back to sanity. It's a journey that will take him from New York City back to his Kansas roots and to the one person who might be able to save him, his tough, big-hearted Midwestern mother, nicknamed the Bird, whose fierce and steadfast love is the light in Zack's dark world.

Before his odyssey is over, Zack will be tackled by guards in mental wards, run naked through cornfields, receive secret messages from the TV, befriend a former Navy Seal and his talking stuffed monkey, and see the Virgin Mary in the whorls of his own back hair. But with the Bird's help, he just might have a shot at pulling through, starting over, and maybe even meeting a partner who can love him back, bipolar and all.

Introducing an electrifying new voice, Gorilla and the Bird is a raw and unforgettable account of a young man's unraveling and the relationship that saves him.

About the Author

Zack McDermott has worked as a public defender for The Legal Aid Society of New York. His work has appeared in the New York TimesThis American LifeMorning Edition, and Gawker, among other places. He lives in New York and LA. 

Praise For…

"A funny, finely observed and
surprisingly touching depiction of what it feels like to lose your mind. By
allowing us to witness his lowest and most delusional moments, and the slow and
tentative process of returning to the world, Zack McDermott provides a gripping
portrait of a very real human battle too often ignored and misunderstood. I am
better for reading this book."—Sarah Hepola, New York Times bestselling author of Blackout

"Zack McDermott's portrait of a mind under assault from bi-polar illness is both fascinating and heart-breaking to observe, and he takes us into his experience with riveting intensity. But McDermott's real achievement is capturing the moving determination and steadfast love of the mother who saves him, the remarkable Bird who breaks the loneliness, quiets the fear and gives him a home worth returning to. I was so moved by this book and these people."—George Hodgman, New York Times bestselling author of Bettyville

"A poignant memoir...[McDermott's] book asks us to
destigmatize mental illness by familiarizing us intimately with the issue."—Los Angeles Review of Books

"McDermott brings a vivid and unsettling degree
of intimacy to his descriptions of mania's onset. . . His work as a public defender grows out of
a deep sense of empathy for the stigmatized and marginalized that's evident on
every page. He uses that empathy to construct a deeply compassionate portrait
of his mother - a resilient woman whose love helps ground him in the real, even
in moments when his reality is at its most friable."—NPR.org

startlingly moving memoir of mother and son, structural injustice and
inflammable mental illness. Gorilla and
the Bird
is as piss-cuttin' a pieta as anyone has any right to hope for.
And Zack McDermott -- guy's a fleet, funny, unsentimental storyteller who
manages that rare thing: He allows a damaged soul be found."—Kent Russell, author of I Am Sorry to Think I Have Raised a Timid Son

captivating and witty memoir about a young lawyer's gut-wrenching struggle with
mental illness and the fierce, protective love of his remarkable mother and
dedicated friends, Zack McDermott's Gorilla and the Bird is not only a
deeply powerful reminder of our own vulnerability, but a truly inspirational
testament to the strength of the human spirit. This book makes accessible
experiences that some may wish to ignore but that urgently require our
attention, acceptance and empathy."—Elizabeth Ford, M.D., author of Sometimes Amazing Things Happen

and the Bird
make you laugh, cry, and wonder what would happen if we were all
brave enough to tell the stories of our relationships with love and
madness. I needed this book."— Kiese Laymon, author of How to Slowly Kill Yourself and Others in America

"A tale of madness, self-destruction, and the stalwart
presence of a family...McDermott's memoir is decidedly offbeat, unfolding
like a country song. There's the law, some good jokes, substance abuse, and
love lost and found, but there's also a keenly felt sense of justice for the
people who can't catch a break in this world, 'the dregs, the castoffs,
the addicts'...If the Joads were tanked up on Bud Light and Haldol
and Steinbeck were under Hunter S. Thompson's influence, this might be the
result-rueful, funny, and utterly authentic."—Kirkus Reviews

"A remarkably written (and lived) memoir about hard beginnings,
bad genes, delusions of grandeur, and epic mother love...holds us rapt."—Huffington Post

"[A] poignant and powerful debut...an important
resource for anyone impacted by the scope of bipolar disorder, as well as those
who want to learn more about it."—The Rumpus

"Glorious...one of the best memoirs I've read in years.
The sheer, sharp pleasure of McDermott's prose is reason enough to pick it up...McDermott
gives us a flawed, funny, self-aware narrator with a powerful command of his
own voice; he can move from barely controlled hilarity to the brink of rage to
aching tenderness in a single breath. While he sustains his pell-mell pace from
the first page to the last, he also covers an enormous amount of territory,
carrying the reader from a brutally funny description of childhood in the heart
of the Midwest to an unflinching exploration of the racism embedded in the
American justice system. At the center of Gorilla
and the Bird
is a beautiful and profoundly affecting portrait of the Bird,
McDermott's mother - a woman as real, raw, and obstinate in her love for the
Gorilla [McDermott] as he is in his love for her...With deceptive effortlessness,
this book carries the reader through both the peculiar twists and turns of the
bipolar mind, and over some complex, shifting terrain in ethics and American
life."—New York Times Book Review
Product Details
ISBN: 9780316315142
ISBN-10: 0316315141
Publisher: Little, Brown and Company
Publication Date: September 26th, 2017
Pages: 288
Language: English